I believe, help my unbelief

I believe that I will make a great midwife, help my unbelief that I can do it. Yesterday another baby was safetly born at home total butter birth. The hands on, I can do, the school well I'm not sure. Its alot and I'm overwhelmed. Don't know where to begin I guess. I am still missing texts, so I read what I can. Pray for me-
Em

odds and ends

How is it that you can walk so closely with the Lord and then not? Its like you dropped off the face of the earth to Him... Well after all the marvelous things He has done and shown me, I just fell off the face of the planet. I don't get it. We had a wonderful christmas and all is well here. School starts soon and I am already exhausted... I am looking at laptops, boy those suckers are expensive! Please be praying for me.
em

My acceptance letter to MCU

I am not saying I did it, but rather God oprened the doors! I am a student, a very overwhelmed student. I admit I am scared of the unknown. Will I be able to finish this? I look at all the "to do's" and think what am I doing? I can say though, I can't imagine doing anything other than delivering babies. Literally one step at a time... Baby stepping to the door, baby stepping out of the door :) (does anyone know that reference?) I also recieved my old transcripts from college, many years ago. Sigh, I was a good student and averaged a 3.4 GPA even with my life falling down around me. Also I only have to take 2 extra credits for my B.S. in Midwifery. I am glad I took labs in school LOL. Please be praying for me as we all staart this new adventure of home school and midwifery school.
Em


Dear Emily,
The Midwives College of Utah is pleased to announce that you have been accepted into
the Bachelor of Science Midwifery degree program. Congratulations and welcome! We
are so pleased to have you as a student and are excited to be part of your journey as you
find your path as a midwife.
The staff and faculty of MCU are dedicated to helping you with your academic and
training needs. Contact us as often as you need as you progress through your program.
You should print off a current catalog off of the web which will guide you in all the
requirements for your program. You will be responsible for keeping a copy of the 2008-
2009 Catalog for the remainder of your program, as requirements for future programs
may differ slightly from yours.

School for all of us!

Just wanted to let you know, that I have been accepted into MCU for my B.S. in midwifery.
I'll keep you updated-
Em

I've applied!

Okay I did it! I applied to midwifery school this evening because the deadline for January semester is today...which I found out today. Whats ironic is when I applied to college almost 13 years ago, I specifically chose schools that had no essays and would not require me to work very hard, hence I ended up at UofA. Well this school, made me write 4 essays and is very intense. I will have 6 years to complete my B.S. in Midwifery. I am excited and scared to see what happens but I know ultimately its in God's hands and if this is what I need to be doing then I will get accepted, if not I am fully comfortable with that as well. Frankly it will be a relief in someways to not have to study my brains out. Yes, we will still be homeschooling and I have peace about that too! Please pray for me!
Em

Growing up is not just for my children

Well I have made it to 30 and it is everything I imagined the age would be. So if you talk to me, ask me how old I am :) Along with this milestone, some hard lessons seem to be coming fast and furious. I have to confess that these lessons are nothing unusually hard and all christians at one time or another have struggled with them, but they have been painful none the less. I have been really enjoying the midwifery but God has me on a short leash with it. I cannot make more than my pre-natal day and possibly one birth a month. Also, at this point no funding has appeared for schooling. What's intresting is that God has not told Bob nor I to quit. Just to continue forward in what is before me, just die to flesh, just to wait on His timing. This is very hard since I have already mapped out the timeline to my new career, which has not included any wait, die to flesh and patience in it. Infact, my "career" is not what I think it will be at all. Struggle, struggle, struggling with the unkown...and then Bob said something that was not on the radar at all....pray about homeschool. Ack?! What?! Lay myself aside? Lay my future "career" aside? I have to say I've been crying all day, partly out of sadness, disbelief, and release. I have only talked to one person about this other than my husband and we are seeking out information and preparation for what may lay ahead. I swore I would not be one of those... homeschoolers. Um, say again Lord, I have wax in my ears, what am I to do? Okay Em, all I have to do is breathe, put one foot forward in front of the other, trusting God to lead us in His ways. Super scary for me, not that I don't think I can do it, because I feel that I have been excellently equiped, minus spelling, through my own school experiences and the brains God gave me. I am not afraid of lesson planning, creative activites, teaching and learning from one another. None of that frightens me. Okay, choosing curriculum is a little scary but not heart stopping. Not even veering from the "norm" scares me tremdously, those of you that know me know the spunky fire in me with a little rebel willing to stand up for what I believe in. Frankly its the dying to myself, putting my boys first before my plans. I completely planned on going full time in midwifery as soon as Eli was full time in school (3 years from now). Now thats a hard pill to swallow. Someone today very eloquently put it like this. Probably at some point God will be using my heart for midwifery to serve Him, but right now, He wants me to prepare my boys to be little Daniel, Shadrach, Meshach and Abendigos. That I need to prepare my family and equip them for the work that lay ahead when God calls us up for His service. That pretty much leveled my soul. In light of that, how can I say no? So here I am Lord. Maybe I can start to enjoy this parenthood ride alittle more rather than white knuckling it like I usually do most days. Please be praying for us as we take our next tentative steps.
~Em~

The irony, we built a homeschool room in our basement when we finished it.

Pumpkin patch pics

Thirty is heading my way awefully fast. In less than a month I will be there. I am not afraid on my thirties. Actually I am excited! I am busy with prenatals and delieveries although I wish I could go to more, I know the Lord has me on His pace. I have asked for a blood pressure cuff, stethescope both and adult one and a peds one for my 30th. I know I'll get them too! ;) Here are some pics of our family pumpkin patch day. The weather was perfect, the kids had a blast, and I no longe feel like I have to chase them or hold them. Ah the joys of having your boys grow up! The basement is also just about finished minus the flooring which we will have to save for.